Kaworu freaking out here is actually something to see and really fucking tragic.
Timeline after timeline after goddamn timetime to make the best possible outcome happen for Shinji, for the person he loves more than anything in the world, that has driven him to repeat and repeat events over and over again after countless failures, he finally had a foolproof plan that took 14 years in the making.
And it went horribly wrong anyways.
And he still smiles for Shinji, still tells him it’ll be OK, fucking apologizes for his failure even when he’s knocking on death’s door, and the dies.
And we definitely know he’ll wake up in another timeline to start over yet again, and probably fail that one too.
I’m so used to Kaworu always smiling, even-tempered, never showing emotion…and then this :|
#the thing that hurts the most is that he tries to geT SHINJI TO STOP #HE’S LIKE YELLING AT SHINJI TO ST O P AND THAT THEY SHOULD TURN BACK BECAUSE SHIT ISN’T RIGHT #BUT SHINJI HAS TO TRY BLESS HIS SOUL HE WANTS TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT #ANd he doesn’t listen to kaworu #and he goes on with the plan anyways #and kaworu is just kind of helpless in that situation because he was trying to turn it around #he was set that he could fix it after he realized shit wasn’t right but shinji wasn’t fucking #listening #and so he dies again #this is really upsetting god no
In the show, Kaworu was asking Shinji to go ahead and kill him.
In 3.0, in a way, Kaworu was begging Shinji not to.
Do you think for once he felt fear?